31.01.2010 - Feeling of fear...

31.01.2010

Tomorrow is the first day of February 2010. It seem like the Chinese New Year is getting to the corner. However, currently I do not have the feelings of CNY yet. There are plenty of assignments and FYP to do and worry about.

First of April is the April’s Fool and it will be the due date for FYP as well if not mistaken. It is really like out of time. When CNY going back I know that I will not have the mood to do the FYP. I am really scared that this semester my result will drop again. Last semester my result was dropped 0.07 compared to the previous semester.

Tomorrow morning will have Visual Basic midterm as well. I just read through only and I found that I felt very sleepy when reading. I am really don’t like and impatient to read unless I like the topic very much. However, I had to read for my exam. This is the first midterm among other subjects.

I don’t like the coming days after CNY because other subject’s midterms will be during that time. It will be very pack because I have to study so many subjects at once. Then, it is showing the FYP due date is getting nearer and nearer. Pressure and stress will be getting more and more during that time. Can I run away or escape from the reality?

Currently, I felt like lack of motivation to do things. When there exists a slightly failure, I already had the idea to give up. I hope someone will believe me that I was not as clever as you are thinking about. I really hope that when I said I don’t know there will have someone believe me and help me out.

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